Penjelasan

I've been doing a lot of thinking... about what I want, about u, about me... n setelah gw pikir2 n analisa(tsaaahhh), in the past, guys had been too nice to me... too soft to get mad at me, they always let me have my way... which is not good... tp gw jadi spoiled n gw "injek2" mereka... walaupun niat gw gak gitu n gak sadar juga saat itu...

And now u've been doin the same, hun... u've been too nice, letting me have my way, accepting when I blame u, even jokingly... and it's like letting me know "hey, u can step all over me" getu... I don't want someone who's gonna let me win all the time, just so I wouldn't get upset n just bury it (so everything will be alrite) n things like that... gw mau cowo yg tegas, hun... sekarang tuh, it's more like "lo mau kayak tai gimana pun, I don't mind" getuu... gw gak mau gitu, hun...

If it's gonna be like this (or worse), I don't think I can truly respect u... I know 100% I can be a pain in the neck... I can be soo annoying n kayak tai... and that's why I need someone who can "smack" me hard in the head n tell me: "hey, u're being a bitch, stop it!" getu... bukannya "mungkin salah gw ya, sorry" or sumthing like that... gw tuh emang manja bgt sama org2 yg care about me n to those I care about... jd jgn tambah dimanjain.. bisa kacauuu tauuu... (peringatan buat elo mumpung lagi sadar diri neh)

Of course, most of the time when I say "salah elo, semua salah elo" I was only joking... tp kan lo bisa tau lah kapan gw joking kapan gw serius...

soal gw "flirting" ke temen2 cowo... hun, that's me... gw kalo ngomong sama temen2 gw begitu, hun.. gak cowo gak cw... gw selalu gitu, hun... dr tadi gw jd mikir "apa iya gw tuh flirting?" jawabannya: GAK... that's how I am with everyone I know... apa yah "playful" ngegemesin, flirting, call it whatever... gw gak tau lagi jelasinnya gimana hun.... what I wanna say is: THAT'S ME... gw ke temen2 gw semua ya begitu... duh... gak bisa lagi jelasinnya gimana... ya pokoknya, begitulah gw, hun... the only times gw gak begitu ya kalo lagi ngomongin yg serius...

Udah ye... bingung juga mau jelasin gimana lagi... sekarang gw mau baca postingan elo... later hun...

yeeee situ belonnn toh... ya udah.. gw gak mau lo baca ini dulu... gw mau we say whatever we wanted to say first before reading each other's posting... ok...

Luv, ~M~

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ada yg kurang td...

gw gak mau kalo elo bela2in gak bobo atau bangun cuman buat ketemu gw aja... jgn cuman mikirin saat itu aja dong.. pikirin juga kesehatan elo, dll... lo gak boleh tingkah laku kayak "obsesi" getu.. mesti tau prioritas elo... gw kalo bobo lo sms suruh ol ya gw moh! n I always make sure I have 6-7 hrs of sleep every day kok.. soalnya gw paling merhatiin kesehatan gw n I hope u'll do the same hun... gimana lo mau "hidup buat org laen" kalo lo sakit2an, dll???? bener kann
lo mesti sehat, baru bisa "take care" of other ppl... getuuu

dah ah, gw post.. situ baaweeelll dahhh