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Hun, kalo gw gak kuliah dll.. I'll leave everything behind just to be with u... run away with u...
Gw selalu bilang gak tau gak tau, mau cari kerja dulu lah, blablabla ke elo...krn gw gak mau lo jd banyak2 berharap tinggi2 hun... kita manusia boleh punya rencana tp yg nentuin kan Tuhan

padahal lo gak tau apa yg gw omongin ke temen2 gw, impian2 gw... gw ngebayangin grow old with u (error!)... kalo mereka nanya "so he's gonna move to Canada or what?" gw selalu jawab "no, I'll move there blablabla"n pokoknya hal2 laen yg selalu bikin org2 tuh komentar "gila lo gw gak pernah ngeliat lo kayak gini!" atau "udah lo kawin cepetan sana" atau "u're so crazy in love" atau "I'm so excited 4 u" gitu dahhh

yang gw mau ya juga sama dgn apa yg lo mau hun... cuman ya gw mesti mikir juga ade gw, nyokap gw... nyokap gw masih perlu gw bgt... dita masih perlu gw bgt... gw gak bisa egois hun... kalo mentingin gw aja mah dah gw tinggal aja semuanya... gw dr dolo dah dididik utk mikirin org laen, n other people always come first... kekeluargaan gw strong hun... waktu di Indo apalagi... selalu bareng2, jarang bgt (hampir gak pernah malah) gw keluar sama temen2 gw... selalu sama bonyok n ade gw... kalo liburan panjang aja gw baru jauh dr bonyok...

Gw dr kecil dah mandiri hun, dr bayi tuh gw gak takut org... kata bonyok gw, dr umur berapa bln tuh gw dah dioper2 dr tetangga satu ke tetangga laen... pas siapa pulang kerja langsung ke rumah, nanya "Thilda saya pinjem duluan yaaaa" gitu... trus ya sampe sore gitu gw sama org... sampe dibawa2 ke pasar lah... sampe satu kompleks tuh taunya gw, gak tau bonyok gw katanya... huahaha... pas gw diajak belanja sama nyokap, org2 pada ngerumunin "ooohh ini toh mamanya" huahahaha... cute bgt ye masa kecil gw huehehe

Trus gw juga deket bgt sama oma n opa gw (yg dr keluarga nyokap), krn gw cucu pertama pula, jd cucu kesayangan huehehe... selaluuuu sama opa n oma gw kalo mereka ke Jakarta atau gw yg ke Palembang hehehehe... jd gw tuh gak pernah hun manja2... yg namanya manja itu gak pernah... dimanja sama om tante, oma opa juga gw gak jd stuck up selfish gitu hun... itu bukan karakter gw... gw gak take advantage of people...gak pernah n gak bakalan... amit2
malahan gw tahan2 oma n opa gw kalo mau beliin gw barang2 kalo lg di mall "gak usah lah, cece gak perlu" ==> mirip2 GG yg kalo ke elo gitu deh hehehe... hihihihi...

masa kecil gw bahagiaaaaaa hehehe... maen2 sama anak kampung (di Palembang), maen air kalo lg pasang (ada tai ngapung2 hihihihi amitttt), trus ya liar gitu dah... FREEEEEEEEEE n no worries... bahagia yg bener2 pure happiness... gw dah kenyang ngerasain happiness huehehe...
Trus waktu sendiri di Perth juga kalo sedih gw gak macem2 kok... paling nangis sendirian, doa, dll... kan homesick bgt tuh, walaupun dah sering jauh dr bonyok... tp kan biasanya ada oma atau opa atau om atau tante atau sodara2 lahhh... tp di Perth tuh gw bener2 sendiri hun... no family, no frens... nobody! gw tetep gak macem2... gak ikut ngedrugs, gak smoking, gak ngelayap sampe pagi (well, except for that one time, movie marathon hehehe sampe jam 11-an gitu)... tetep gw tuh anak yg responsible, yg dewasa... krn itu lah gw... itu upbringing gw...kalo gw macem2 tuh rasanya itu bukan gw n I'm not being true to myself... jd gw gak tenang...
Trus waktu liburan ke Indo setelah 6 bln disana gw malah jd aktif di gereja, gara2 tetangga gw ngajakin karismatik lah, ngunjungin org sakit lah, dll... gw gak suka karismatik... gw takut abisnya org2 pada histeris huehehe... gw mah gak yg show2 n out in the open... gw lebih keep it to myself, between me n God

gw sering ke gereja pagi2 n bantu2in juga males cerita ke org(ke elo aja segan gw "laporan") gak perlu bgt... makanya gw selalu pergi pagiiii bgt, krn gerejanya masih kosong n gak ada yg liat gw kerja... except for Stella (that old lady is already there since 6 am! n she's 97 years old tp masih kuat n seger bugerrr n selalu smiling)... kalo dah siang n dah mulai ada org dateng mah gw paling males bgt... rasanya risih gitu... lagian gak gampang hun, banyak yg sirik sama gw.. waktu pertama2 gw bantu2, org2 tua tuh pada musuhin gw hun "nih anak muda ngapain sih disini, berani deket2 tabernacle lage" gitu lah pokoknya attitudenya... gw tuh dimusuhin gitu... gw kan sekarang punya access ke tempat priests, nyentuh2 yg seharusnya cuman priests yg sentuh (krn kalo bukan gw yg check/kerjain ya sopo lage...priests nya manja, mau tau beres aje hehehe)... pokoknya gw tuh yg in charge gitu deh hehehe... nyantai aja gw mah... yg seksi repot gitu hehehe... the invisible helper huehehehe... kayak cerita elf n the shoemaker hihihihi

sering maunya pastur2 tuh laen sama apa yg org2 tua itu ajarin ke gw... jd gw suka banyak kesalahan waktu pertama2... sampe sering sakit hati gw, kayak disengajain gitu... sering gw nahan air mata di gereja pagi2... busettt kalo dah ribut sama old lady hun, repotttttttt n sakittttttttt... krn gw gak mau kurang ajar n ngelawan, biarpun gw tau gw bener... yg jahat ya old ladies aja( yg old men mah ok ok aja...priests nya aja gak pernah marah2 ke gw, tp mereka yg sok marah2)... bukan jahat sih, tp jealous n merasa gak dibutuhkan lagi gitu... padahal gw pengen bgt panggil semua pengurus gereja tuh meeting n gw mau suggest kalo mereka invite more young people to help...krn org2 tua itu udah sakit2an n gak kuat ini itu... kan gereja bukan milik mereka aja... milik semua org... jd semua org should contribute... pernah gw saking kesel n sedihnya gw type surat yg gak gw print huheehhehe... gw keep aja buat gw sendiri.

Suratnya hampir 2 halaman huehehe... n gw nulisnya lg panas bgt n sambil nangis krn kesel n sakit hati huehehe... dita tuh yg paling sengsara, krn dia kan masih kecil n buat banyak kesalahan... jd dia sering kena omel huehehe... tp sekarang dah gak sih... sekarang dah damaiiii... phew! damai sampe kapan gak tau deh gw... mudah2an lasts for a longggg time... hehehe Sekarang mah gw kenal banyak org di gereja n mereka baik2 bgt ke gw huehehe... they don't find me threatening anymore I guess...

I’m writing this letter for the sole purpose of expressing my concerns about the parishioners who, without realizing, have deeply hurt other people’s feelings. I am grieved by the lack of love and support between the members of the parish.

I believe that we are all one in Jesus Christ and that we should all work together to be more like Jesus in our every words and actions. We all should work together to serve the Lord in every little way possible, be it preparing the books, the altar, the lights, coming to daily mass or just staying for the morning prayer. What is the purpose of all this? To serve the Lord whom we claim to love with all our hearts.

I am disappointed by all the harsh complaints and critics that people give to those who do actually help out before and after mass. People always focus their attention to the faults and imperfections of others. We are not perfect, but trying to be perfect because God wants us all to be perfect. When will we achieve that perfection? God only knows, but that’s why we need God, because we are not perfect. If we’re all perfect, we will be too proud and conceited.

“You should teach the little girl to stop her eyes from wandering during mass and to be perfectly still; that means she’s not praying!” protested one parishioner about the altar server who serves mass daily. Well, to this I want to say, “Well, then you should also teach yourself to focus on Jesus during mass, not on what others are doing.” Would Jesus say what that parishioner says? Jesus says, “Let all children come to me.” It could have been solved by going to the little girl and talking to her in a very gentle way, instead of going to other people and complained and hurt the little girl’s and her family’s feelings. But we forgive that person because Jesus would have forgiven him/her. Why do people have such impure hearts and minds full of hatred and jealousy? Shouldn’t we be supportive of people who help out in church instead of throwing stones at them? Would you come early every morning to help set up the church or to simply prepare your heart for mass? The reasons we pray and go to mass are to celebrate Christ’s love, mercy, passion, and death and to purify our hearts and minds, so that we could be more like Jesus.

There are many complaints addressed to the little girl since she started helping out every morning. If my sister and I do something incorrectly, please tell us nicely, don’t go behind our backs and talk about us like we’re outcasts. We’re part of the church too and we’re only trying to help out. We’re sorry that us helping out threatens some people’s “positions” in the church. Who comes very early every morning? A fragile little old lady who prepares the books and the altar, another fragile old lady who prays quietly and whose smile brightens people’s day , a weak old lady who cleans the candles and whose sweet voice brings more life to the celebration, and a middle-aged woman who helps clean the candles and recruit others to help out. You see, these old ladies cannot be doing everything themselves until they die. The young people have to help out. The church doesn’t belong to the old people alone, it belongs to all of us, and we should work together to take excellent care of the church because it’s God’s house. n so on n so forth hehehe...

hun, jgn pernah minder atau insecure krn masa lalu elo...dr email gw yg itu tuh gw udah bilang kalo masa lalu lo itulah yg made u who u r today... kalo gak gitu lo gak tau care ke org (lo belajar care krn ada GG), lo gak tau kalo apa yg lo alamin ini tuh berharga, dll... pokoknya laen lah n gw kemungkinan besar gak bakal fallin 4 u gitu tanpa masa lalu lo itu... now it's just a matter of getting other people (my parents especially) to see ur past the way I see it... my frens totally can see it the way I see it... geez the young people are more open n tolerant n understanding... they don't judge as harshly as older people...

Makanya gw gak mau ngasih tau bonyok ttg masa lalu situ dulu...I want them to get to know u as a person first before they pass on bad judgments... nyokap gw especially...I know her very very well... dia cepet judge org dr kesan pertama, tp kalo dia udah kenal tuh org, n if later on dia find out bad things about that person's past, dia malah gak ngejudge bad... dia malah jd soft... n pengertian... gitu deh...

Lo mau bilang gw pinter manipulasi org kek atau apa lah gw gak tau... hehehe... but one thing I know for sure, I know my way around people... hehehehehehe... gw bisa bgt angkat2 org kalo gw mau n gw bisa bgt menjatuhkan org kalo gw mau... I can do anything! huehehe dr dulu gw dah sadar akan quality ini di diri gw... gw tuh influential di hidup org2... hehehe... bukannya mau mamer nehhh... n gw tuh gak suka muji org... hihihi... jd kalo dpt pujian dr gw, artinya either gw lg gila, atau gw memang anggep lo patut dpt pujian dr gw huehehe...

Bokap telp, dia lg makan Noodle 88 sama Adam..ngajakin gw... gile, gw dah kenyang giniiii... makan jam 10 malem yg ada gak bisa tidurrrr huehehehe

Anyways, back to the subject... gw gak suka use my influence utk get my way... tp kalo terpaksa ya apa boleh buat... kayak misalnya kalo dpt nilai jelek waktu smp hihihi... ya baek2in gurunya dikit... gurunya emang dah "horny" juga ya jd gampang lah... sekalian aje... sopo suruh perlakuin gw kayak gitu, gw bales hihihihi... to get what I want...
trus kalo camping, pas saat2 dikerjain kek atau apa kek sama kakak2 kelas yg brengsek... ya gw berlagak perlu dikasianin lah biar mereka gak tega ngerjain gw hihihihi... memelas dikit gitu...
gw kan sebelon gw pindah ke Perth kan benernya mau diangkat jd ketua pramuka tuh... tau kan pramuka? boy/girl scout gitu... gw saat2 itu bener2 confident n gak takut maju ke depan n mimpin upacara atau ngibarin bendera huehehe... I was da bomb! hihihi
gak tau kenapa sekarang jd pengecut giniiiii huehehehe... waktu di perth jd Juliet aje gemeteran setengah mampus...u have no idea! trus di video tape n ditunjukin ke org2... sampe sekarang pun gw denger masih di play ke murid2 baru huahahaha... memalukan!

eh eh... situ singgung2 soal body waktu itu, gw jd inget... gw tuh jogging bukan utk ngurusin badan lageeee... kalo buat ngurusin badan mah jogging gak gitu ngefek hun... itu utk cardio n utk beat stress... jd seger n happy seharian n jd energetic gitu... n juga buat self discipline... make myself feel better cuz I can do it if I want to... hehehe... will power... lagian gw bener2 enjoy 30 mins by myself, listening to music, damaiii, pikiran jernih, pokoknya I love it! kalo mau ngurusin badan mah gw dah coba hun, cara laen lebih efektif... sit ups n push ups combined with yoga... gw dah coba n waktu tiap hr gw rajin, perut gw rata hihihihi... gak berlipet huehehe... tp kan situ love me anyway with or with no lipetan hihihihi... so I don't care... asal gak overweight mah gw gak worried... waktu SMA malah jalan tiap hr, naek bus n train... I was in shape huehehe... makanya neh kaki kayak pemain soccer... emang iye sih, maen soccer huehehe... egp juga... eh kan gw pikir bule2 tuh gak sekurang ajar abang2 di Indo ye... salah besar huahaha... pernah waktu di Perth waktu jalan pulang (naek bis, bukan naek train) kan lewat jalanan sepi gitu (gw suka ganti2 route jalan supaya unpredictable hehehe...tp belakangan gw sering naek train krn diajakin temen2 bareng n fun juga sih, ya udah deh)... eh tau2 ada truck lewat n tau2 ada yg teriak n whistle "nice legs!" gitu... gw sampe shock berat n ngibrit pulang hehehehe... padahal rok gw gak pendek... pas dilutut gitu... jd kayak trauma gitu...kayak waktu di Indo aja rasanye... tai dah...

gile gw baru inget...kalo gw kayak gw yg dulu, yg kalo pergi n pulang sekolah tuh selalu sama temen2 rame2 (cowo semua) lo bisa ngamuk2 kali tiap saat huehehe... ya itu lah gw... one of the boys... tp gw sebel juga nungguin mereka ngerumpi dolo lah ini lah itu lah.. jd ya sering juga gw tinggal pulang sendiri huehehe... gw kan yg maunya on time...gak mau lelet2... ketus gitu pokoknya huehehe... jalan bareng2 aja bisa gak nyampe2 rasanya...becanda2 sepanjang jalan gak liat ke depan... konyol...anak muda hihihi... tp gak flirt tuh hun... like I said, I was one of the guys... becanda2 konyol gaya cowo... yg ngaco2 n kalo sadar gw tuh cw ya diem bentar...trus sambung lage huehehe... gitu deh... sama cw2 mana bisa gitu tanpa "ihhh elo ngeres" atau "eh gw baru shopping lhoo" atau "ehhh gw baru foto studio lhooo" atau "eh gw punya cowo baru lhooo" ARRRRGGGHHHH it drives me nuts! do u understand? gw gak get along with girls! baru2 aja gw coba n bener2 usaha to have more girlfrens krn gw pikir gw gak normal n I can't be like that forever... ya bisa sih bisa get along sama cw... tp mesti yg udah tante2 (tp bukan yg shallow tante2) atau nenek2 atau yang mateng lahhh... yg gak mikirinnya shopping dll aje... yg bisa ngomongin soal life n other important things... yg bisa gw pelajari pengalaman2nya...

Salah satu alasan gw deket sama Sam/Rhob/Jared/Bram ya krn kalo jokes gitu mereka gak gampang tersinggung n mereka lebih ok ok aja... sama Sandi n Marina juga sih, mereka tomboy juga sih... tp kalo sama Haidy/Dorothy/Mel mah...pfft... I won't bother! gw bener2 commfortable sama Jared n Bram... Sam n Rhob too...but both of those guys are sometimes too HARSH kalo becanda huehehe...

td baru disinggung di kelas... "some people are cognitive-driven" atau apa gitu... ya gw kayak2 gitu dah... artinya, mereka harus tau alasan2 why they're doing what they're doing n kalo beli barang mesti yg udah dipelajari dulu n pokoknya selalu mau cari knowledge n belajar hal2 baru... bukan yg spontan beli barang ya beli aja ... harus dipikir bener2 n dipelajari dulu... lo juga gitu kan ya hun huehehe... nah, org2 yg kayak gitu tuh gak gampang "kemakan" atau diperngaruhi krn mereka pendiriannya kuat krn foundationsnya tuh facts n knowledge n mateng lah pokoknya... jd gak gampang diganggu gugat... lo ngerti lah maksud gw...

Hun, I know I told u I booked the whole week off next week, but I'm working Monday... krn mereka bener2 butuh gw... biasa kan gw gak kerja Monday... banyak perubahan di Rogers yg harus dikerjain next week... n memang di contract ditulis mesti bisa available at least 3 days in a week... jd gw book the whole week off tuh udah pada "whattttt" gitu reaksinya huehehe... ini aja mereka ngasih krn gw dah ngasih tau dr lama... waktu belon pasti aja gw dah pesen "I might book the whole week off, but not sure yet blablabla" udah gw warned dr bulan lalu huehehe... yg situ dtg Sept awal juga dah gw book...tp gak tau mesti book tgl berapa huehehe... jd ya minggu pertama aja yg gw book... bisa diubah kok itu masih...

So yeah, the best I can do is... I'm working Monday, 12-5... gw mikir td "ada bagusnya juga lah, jd gw gak anxious nungguin situ arrive n jd gak gitu "gila" n tau2 dah jam 5 gitu" hihihihi... n gw langsung nemuin situ aja abis kerja... atau lo samperin gw ke Rogers...

Eh hun, lo mau gw beliin minutes Rogers gak neh? jd pas lo sampe lo dah ada minutes di hp langsung... eh tp lo mesti minta nomer dulu ye... hmmmm... I dont know... let me know...

HAHAHAHAHA abis baca postingan situ lg hr ini... hun lo kalo mau masturb mah silahkan... ntar di pendem2 malah meledak pas ada gw mah gawatttt... ntar horny yg kebangetan bisa mampus gw! hihihihi

trus lu nyuruh mandi ... ya gw mandi lagi .. jd dalam waktu 2 jam gw mandi 2x hehe seger ... yg kedua mandi pake aer dingin biar adem hati nya .. kan situ yg suruhhhhhhhhhhhhhh===> HAHAHHAHAHAHA GW ngakak abisssss... situ konyol dah... huahaha... gw pikir situ dah ngomel2 "neh cw bawel bgt sih... nyuruh2 mandi lage...tsss" eh taunya beneran dilakuin! huahaha... soalnya kan dulu situ selalu "ngapain nyuruh2 gw segala, nyuruh tidur lah blablabla" situ sewot hihihihi

lo bilang kan kita comfortable bgt with each other, jd mungkin seenaknya... bukan gitu hun... krn comfortable, gw jd gak setiap saat worried mesti "duh sms gak ya? ntar dia marah gak ya?" kayak kalo org2 biasanya kan gitu hun... insecure gitu... I know that nothing's gonna change no matter what... jd gw lebih tenang aja gitu... bukannya gak sayang lg ke situ atau gak mikirin elo... ok???

situ gak perhatiannn ihhhhh... gw kerja aja td gak tauuu... uugghh! pengen gw cekek rasanya... kan apa gw bilang juga...gak guna gw tulis schedule gw di blog... hihihi

hun , gw ga pernah marah hun dr dolo .. sekrg aja gw bingung ... gw tuh kayak nya butuh banget perhatian situ getuh , dan sayang nya situ ,, gw blom pernah hun ngerasain spt yg elo kasih rasa ini di diri gw, blom pernah dapet dr siapapun ...
aksi yg gw buat kalo gw kangen tuh ... ada ada aja hun ,aneh aneh ====> ya kalo udah pernah gak special lage donggggg huehehe... aksi lo aneh2... emberrrrr... sampe gw tuh bingung juga "kok bisa ye gw sabar bgt ngeladenin neh asshole satu yg tingkahnya macem2 aje? Mestinya kan gw bisa cuek" cuek kayak gw dulu... "lo mau marah? gih silahkan! ntar telp gw kalo dah gak marah2 ye!" gitu gw dulu... I don't give a f**k if u're gonna be mad or whatever... tssss... gitu hun gw dulu... gualak n in control bgt lah gitu... jahat sih ye... manipulasi ye itu namanya? huehehe

Sekarang "jgn marah2 hunnneeeee" huehehe... n sms bejibun, telp bejibun.... eh hr ini rame bgt sms n telp hihihihi
tiap hr tuh adaaaa aja hun yg bikin ketawa n cengar cengir... jd hr2 tuh jd meaningful ... bukannya berarti sebelon2nya gak meaningful... tp jd lebih berarti gitu... jd lebih complete... hehehe... like they say "now u wonder how u could live without that person before" huehehe... n after almost 1 yr, I'm still unbelievably in luv... in fact, even more in luv... OMG... gak pernah bgt neh gw... huehehehe...

Oooookkk... gw gak jd post di blog gw nehhhh... gara2 situ bangun n chatting n gw jd nulis blog sepanjang lari marathon gini... tsssssssss... sialan... padahal dah cape ngetik huehehe
Gw bobooooo... hr ini gak kebooooooooooooooo huhuhuhuhu

hug n kisses,
Pw's lover