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habis chat ama loe neh ,,, gara gara jahe jadi tambah ga tidur hahah gw pikir lo mau melek sampai jam 12 getu hihihi sialan di tinggal tidur gw hhihihi ...
gw juga jet lag sih ... jet lie deng .... THE ONE hihi apa cobaaaa

gw tuh kalo abis chat dgn elo dan gw being asshole getu ngerasa salah banget rasa nye tauuuuuuu ! ga enak aja
gw kepikiran banyak lagi hari ini ... ttg relationship ini hihihi
ketemu dgn bonyok , pengorbanan situ yg mau ke NL , kangen nya situ ...
ugh pikiran paan ye ada aja ... gw keep buat gw sendiri ... hihihi
ga mau ngobral kata kata cintaaaaaaaaaa gw ! tsaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah kerennnn hihihihi

sama yg gw rasa in dgn elo ....kangen nya , sayang nya , ga bisa apa apa nya dgn jarak ini ... tapi ya worth it lah semua nya ini buat di rasa in ..

gw lagi denger eminem dgn rap nya MOCKINGBIRD rap buat anak nya ..... halley ...

Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it, we gonna do it
Lainie uncle's crazy, aint he yeah?
But he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up as daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
*Either kept getting broken into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Trying to start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
Onto Chalmers in a flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Lainnie were to young to understand it
That Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Lainie I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

[Chorus]

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad

dari crita ttg drama hidup nye dia bisa ngehasilin duit banyak .... bisa nyukupin semua kebutuhan hidup dia dan anak nya ... berlebihan malah ...
dan kalo ga kuat salah salah bakalan sakit mental gara gara duit ntar hihihihihi ...

yg penting cukup ya hun .... asal cukup aja ...
kerja ... bisa buat biaya sekolah sendiri ,.. jgn kecapean juga ... apa cobaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa kok jadi inget elo neh gw hahahaa ...... gara gara situ bayar duit kuliah mahal gileee ,....
salut banget gw dgn elo hun ...
jaman sekrg tuh sekolah mahal ye ...
elo tuh emang hebat bgt hun .... lucky banget gw bisa punya relationship dgn elo ...
gw bangga .......
gw bisa kok ketemu dgn orang tua elo ,cuman gw ga bisa kalo gw ga jujur .. (gw pernah nikah , gw punya anak )
ga gampang itu hun ... buat ngomong nya ( elo nya maksud gw bicara ke bonyok elo )
gw pingin kalo kita bisa sampai ke arah situ ....
love u hun ... ga mau mellow mellow laaaaaaagee gw bener nya ... tapi kalo pas baca tuh elo yg lagi chat dgn Linda .....
ugh , jalani aja hun .....
kalo elo ngitung untung rugi nye dgn gw hun ... elo banyak rugi nye yaaa ..
gw cuman modal sayang banget hun ama loe .... ga ada modal laen ... ( ma modal west coast choppers hat) ..* blom dateng tapi hat nya hihihihi *
setelah ketemu ini gw sekrg bisa lebih ngerasa in kalo elo sayang ke gw dan juga sebalik nya ...
elo lebih expresif .... gw suka itu hun .. elo lebih open ...

love u Catherine Mathilda

J