nothin to say

Hi J

I'm running out of words... words are useless anyway... tired, frustrated... about everything.
Tadinya gw juga dah excited bgt ketemu elo, nyetir cepet2, lewat jalan yg gak ada perbaikan... eh trus baca email, langsung dah gw rasanya kayak dicemplungin ke apa gitu... langsung panik n BT gitu... n walaupun udah berusaha ngesampingin itu, krn gak banyak waktu buat chat sama elo, tetep aja gak bisa...ngeganjel gitu... sorry bgt ya...

benernya gw dah males bgt sih chatting2 gitu... kayaknya dah gak tau mau ngomong apa, gitu... pengennya ya ketemu beneran aja... susah bgt rasanya... yg ada di otak gw ya when u were here with me... n itu yg gak tau dah bikin tambah susah atau tambah gampang ngejalaninnya... I have no idea... I don't know nothing anymore... it's so hard for me right now to stay focused on what I gotta do... hopeless bgt gitu kayaknya... if I can, I just wanna run away with u n screw everything else... but I can't do that... frustrated bgt rasanya... arrrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhh

n it's like, everything I do, I just seem to screw things up all the time... whyyyyy??????? tai bgt! tambah lagi elo marah2... n gw juga kesel2 mulu... rasanya susah bgt... pengen mampus aja gw rasanye... kalo mampus kan beres gitu... paling ya pusingnya soal laen kali... gak tau gw, gak pernah mampus...

ahhh nih internet kayak tai lageeeee... tssss...udah ah... kebanyakan bawel gw... cape... udah hun, jgn marah2 terus... emang gw kayak tai... dont know why u put up with me n still love me hehehe...
later then... gw lg kepanasan... gak mau gw masuk neraka... pasti lebih panas dr ini soalnya... uugghh...